as i gmail chatted with abby the other day i was typing & i felt like sharing..
i have realized. that my music, my blogs and my journaling makes up who i am.
when i write...type..listen...it slowly forms who i am.
i get to show the definition of me.
the wonders of the happy things. i enjoy taking it all in and giving it out...
that the happiness and optimisticness that I am comes out when I let my lame ol try to be creative writing write.
it helps that i express it to my best friend.
the loving the simple things in life like sweet tea and sunflowers.
smiling at the words like hi and love
exhilarated by the adventures that occur and will slowly and rapidly venture out of life.
being like this helps me know who I am.
like nothing else.
Also I love Jesus with all my heart.
I know that I ramble & put words together, but why not?
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Monday, April 25, 2011
May I Say...?
May I say I wish I could know and understand everything?
Why does it happen?
Why?
May I say that if I knew everything my life would be boring?
May I say that it is character building when I let myself trust in God instead of myself?
Life is no easy thing.
I have {recentlyish} come into situations that I never thought in a million years I would come upon.
Everything seems to undoubtedly crumble under my feet, whether its friendships or homework.
I dont know why, but I must retain the faith in my Jesus that He has His plans.
May I say that I must surrender to Him in ever way if I am going to live this life to the best of my ability...?
Romans 8:26-28 The Message
Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God's Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don't know how or what to pray, it doesn't matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That's why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.
Clinging to every promise He has given us. Knowing that there is a reason for this season.
I didn't truly comprehend life being downright rough until this whole "shabang" started happening...
but with never completely experiencing that...in this way..I haven't had to have this insane amount of faith.
My God is faithful even when I am faithless.
So imagine if I'm faithful...He still remains faithful.
It might just be me, but having faith makes it better.
It relays peace within.
Jesus have Your way.
In Him,
Ashtyn Grace Carrigan
Why does it happen?
Why?
May I say that if I knew everything my life would be boring?
May I say that it is character building when I let myself trust in God instead of myself?
Life is no easy thing.
I have {recentlyish} come into situations that I never thought in a million years I would come upon.
Everything seems to undoubtedly crumble under my feet, whether its friendships or homework.
I dont know why, but I must retain the faith in my Jesus that He has His plans.
May I say that I must surrender to Him in ever way if I am going to live this life to the best of my ability...?
Romans 8:26-28 The Message
Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God's Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don't know how or what to pray, it doesn't matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That's why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.
Clinging to every promise He has given us. Knowing that there is a reason for this season.
I didn't truly comprehend life being downright rough until this whole "shabang" started happening...
but with never completely experiencing that...in this way..I haven't had to have this insane amount of faith.
My God is faithful even when I am faithless.
So imagine if I'm faithful...He still remains faithful.
It might just be me, but having faith makes it better.
It relays peace within.
Jesus have Your way.
In Him,
Ashtyn Grace Carrigan
Friday, January 21, 2011
It's Always Been You-Chris August
It's always been You from the day that I saw You
From a heart that was broken I was changed into something brand new
Like a butterfly learning how to use my wings to fly like the wind
Gotta make it home again
It's always been You seeing deeper than the surface with a smile You demolish all my walls You can always break through to the heart of the matter no matter what I try to do
When I hide from the sun You come and change my point of view
I'm sorry for the things I've done
When You ran to me I turned to run
But You were waiting when I came undone
And needed me someone to hold onto
It's always been You in the heat of the moment
When the pain was so real and the scars on my heart were still wounds
I gotta stop hiding from the one thing that’s left to do
I know what I gotta do
I'm sorry for the things I've done
When You ran to me I turned to run
But You were waiting when I came undone
And needed me someone to hold onto
I wake up I wake up to the morning light to the morning light
I wake up
I wake up cause You shine so bright
I'm sorry for the things I've done
When You ran to me I turned to run
Yeah, You were waiting
You were waiting
I'm sorry for the things I've done
When You ran to me I turned to run
But You were waiting when I came undone
And needed me someone to hold onto
It's always been You
From a heart that was broken I was changed into something brand new
Like a butterfly learning how to use my wings to fly like the wind
Gotta make it home again
It's always been You seeing deeper than the surface with a smile You demolish all my walls You can always break through to the heart of the matter no matter what I try to do
When I hide from the sun You come and change my point of view
I'm sorry for the things I've done
When You ran to me I turned to run
But You were waiting when I came undone
And needed me someone to hold onto
It's always been You in the heat of the moment
When the pain was so real and the scars on my heart were still wounds
I gotta stop hiding from the one thing that’s left to do
I know what I gotta do
I'm sorry for the things I've done
When You ran to me I turned to run
But You were waiting when I came undone
And needed me someone to hold onto
I wake up I wake up to the morning light to the morning light
I wake up
I wake up cause You shine so bright
I'm sorry for the things I've done
When You ran to me I turned to run
Yeah, You were waiting
You were waiting
I'm sorry for the things I've done
When You ran to me I turned to run
But You were waiting when I came undone
And needed me someone to hold onto
It's always been You
Challenged
challenged.
i. am. challenged.
i am a hopeless defender of my own.
i am weak. i am unworthy.
i am broken. i cannot mend my self.
it's impossible.
complete self accomplishment can deceive me.
i am unable to do anything.
on my own.
I am nothing.
I am everything.
I am nothing when I have nothing, but myself.
I am capable of everything when I have God at all.
By...With...For.. Jesus Alone...
I am challenged, but I am not faithless.
I am filled with hope.
I am strong. I am more than worthy.
I am mended.
It is possible.
I learn truth.
I am able to do all things.
I am nothing.
I am everything.
i. am. challenged.
i am a hopeless defender of my own.
i am weak. i am unworthy.
i am broken. i cannot mend my self.
it's impossible.
complete self accomplishment can deceive me.
i am unable to do anything.
on my own.
I am nothing.
I am everything.
I am nothing when I have nothing, but myself.
I am capable of everything when I have God at all.
By...With...For.. Jesus Alone...
I am challenged, but I am not faithless.
I am filled with hope.
I am strong. I am more than worthy.
I am mended.
It is possible.
I learn truth.
I am able to do all things.
I am nothing.
I am everything.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
My Blog
Ah, hello blog and blog viewers.
I am just so smart that I deleted my template and cannot get it back. In order to get a new one I really like, will take patience on my part and a lot of steps....I tried doing that today and that didn't work at all. In result, I have a boring blog template and design. I suppose the reason for a blog isn't for the pretty frills and cool designs, but for the words...the stories, the thought put into every post.
I will soon, change my template and colors to the best of my ability, but for now, what you see is what you get. Words, stories, thoughts....
type again soon,
ashtynn
:)
I am just so smart that I deleted my template and cannot get it back. In order to get a new one I really like, will take patience on my part and a lot of steps....I tried doing that today and that didn't work at all. In result, I have a boring blog template and design. I suppose the reason for a blog isn't for the pretty frills and cool designs, but for the words...the stories, the thought put into every post.
I will soon, change my template and colors to the best of my ability, but for now, what you see is what you get. Words, stories, thoughts....
type again soon,
ashtynn
:)
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Little Girl Self Dreamin Up Her Big Girl Self Wedding
my wedding :)
Yes, I realize I am classified a bit silly for making a blog post consisting of my wishful thinking & joyous hopes for my wedding, which is not for who-knows-how-long.
Well, silly, I will be..
I love the beauty that is found in simplicity & that can be done everywhere. I think my wedding will have simply beautiful nature along with some crazy things. Weird, eh? Well, that's me.
I am all about expressing me in what I do. {and in this case, my future husband as well, but I am not worrying about what he wants exactly, cause well I am not sure if I know him or nott. Don't worry, it is my utmost wish for him and I to both have a say. Duh.}
Anyhow, Texas, for sure. Texas is just amazing to me. It's my home place, my memory state, and getting married here would be just perfect.
In an open field, where you can look so far to see nothing, but more field. Green grass.
I'll be holding an array of sunflowers.
September or October. just at sunset.
The wind will be blowing slightly and the sky will be blue as ever, splattered with a few white clouds.
My dress will not be heavy and sparkly but it will be flowing and perfectly me. My hair will be partially up, partially down, partially curly and partially straight. I dont know how yet. :) haha
This sounds a bit country, right? Okay, now imagine all the bridal party wearing different color converse and dress than everyone else. All the bridesmaids will have a different kind of flower! They can pick, I dont really care!
Music wise, after the marriage was OFFICIAL, we would walk..run back down the isle to my favorite song just cause of its happiness...Smile by Uncle Kracker
Then by reception it would be dark(ish), and there would be a lot of colored Chinese lanterns. The other lights would be the moon and the stars. :)
To sit, there would be tables and chairs everywhere, but also colorful couches...or beanbags!
There would be big stereos for some amazing music. and a wooden dance floor.
After the reception, we would ride off in a truck, a jeep wrangler or a four wheeler.
I JUST THOUGHT ABOUT RESTROOMS...HAHA....UMM......... i dont know..OH. port-a-potties all the way..hahaha
That's all for noww.
-Ashtyn Carrigann (:
{PS I am aware that ALL of these ideas are subject to change, but I am also aware that I am very intent on keeping childhood dreams in my mind...heart, so that I might fulfill them.}
Yes, I realize I am classified a bit silly for making a blog post consisting of my wishful thinking & joyous hopes for my wedding, which is not for who-knows-how-long.
Well, silly, I will be..
I love the beauty that is found in simplicity & that can be done everywhere. I think my wedding will have simply beautiful nature along with some crazy things. Weird, eh? Well, that's me.
I am all about expressing me in what I do. {and in this case, my future husband as well, but I am not worrying about what he wants exactly, cause well I am not sure if I know him or nott. Don't worry, it is my utmost wish for him and I to both have a say. Duh.}
Anyhow, Texas, for sure. Texas is just amazing to me. It's my home place, my memory state, and getting married here would be just perfect.
In an open field, where you can look so far to see nothing, but more field. Green grass.
I'll be holding an array of sunflowers.
September or October. just at sunset.
The wind will be blowing slightly and the sky will be blue as ever, splattered with a few white clouds.
My dress will not be heavy and sparkly but it will be flowing and perfectly me. My hair will be partially up, partially down, partially curly and partially straight. I dont know how yet. :) haha
This sounds a bit country, right? Okay, now imagine all the bridal party wearing different color converse and dress than everyone else. All the bridesmaids will have a different kind of flower! They can pick, I dont really care!
Music wise, after the marriage was OFFICIAL, we would walk..run back down the isle to my favorite song just cause of its happiness...Smile by Uncle Kracker
Then by reception it would be dark(ish), and there would be a lot of colored Chinese lanterns. The other lights would be the moon and the stars. :)
To sit, there would be tables and chairs everywhere, but also colorful couches...or beanbags!
There would be big stereos for some amazing music. and a wooden dance floor.
After the reception, we would ride off in a truck, a jeep wrangler or a four wheeler.
I JUST THOUGHT ABOUT RESTROOMS...HAHA....UMM......... i dont know..OH. port-a-potties all the way..hahaha
That's all for noww.
-Ashtyn Carrigann (:
{PS I am aware that ALL of these ideas are subject to change, but I am also aware that I am very intent on keeping childhood dreams in my mind...heart, so that I might fulfill them.}
Sunday, December 5, 2010
oh man, this is my life.
hi there. it has been a crazy amount of time since i have posted.
and....
oh man, this is my life.
I can't express how blessed and in love with life I am.
When it comes to family, I am interpreting slowly, but surely and excitedly what God has for these moments and situations that we come across together.
When it comes to friends, I truly am overwhelmed with every single one of them. I have this incredible relationship with so many of them that I wouldn't trade for anything.
When it comes to bad, I am fighting against it and in pursuit of making it absolutely terrified of me.
When it comes to good, it comes to everything Jesus.
When it comes to love, well, i am enchanted. and i cant smile without it.
When it comes to hate, well, hate got nothin on love, so i'm not scared of it.
When it comes to happiness, that's just one of the definitions of me.
When it comes to me, well, I am still figuring that one out. But I am just incredibly in awe of every terrible and amazing moment that life brings. I still think everything is beautiful, maybe not immediately, but i just gotta trust and try to love life when I dont want to. I have come to a conclusion that so much in life is so simple, yet it is not easy at all. And thank goodness! How would life be if everything was simple and easy. this is life...the hard journey that we choose to pursue no matter the circumstances that evil tries to kill us with. Satan is always trying to crush me in whatever way he can; this is why I am reaching for the point of such faith that the devil has no assets to me. Smile is still, my motto. I love being a friend and boy, do I love having them.
When it comes to dreaming, I still do immensely. I dream, yet still, with no limitations. but..
When it comes to achieving, that's what I aim for more so then "super cool" dreams. Well, I dream, with every intention of fulfilling that dream.
I am in love with love, whether it's Jesus love, unfailing family love, completely reliable friend love..or the wonderment of someone I could love and that same person loving me. I trust trust trust trust Jesus for it. Like I said earlier...its simple...but most definitely not easy. Hopefully this is redundant...but, I truly believe this life is good. :)
oh man, this is my life.
-ashtynn
and....
oh man, this is my life.
I can't express how blessed and in love with life I am.
When it comes to family, I am interpreting slowly, but surely and excitedly what God has for these moments and situations that we come across together.
When it comes to friends, I truly am overwhelmed with every single one of them. I have this incredible relationship with so many of them that I wouldn't trade for anything.
When it comes to bad, I am fighting against it and in pursuit of making it absolutely terrified of me.
When it comes to good, it comes to everything Jesus.
When it comes to love, well, i am enchanted. and i cant smile without it.
When it comes to hate, well, hate got nothin on love, so i'm not scared of it.
When it comes to happiness, that's just one of the definitions of me.
When it comes to me, well, I am still figuring that one out. But I am just incredibly in awe of every terrible and amazing moment that life brings. I still think everything is beautiful, maybe not immediately, but i just gotta trust and try to love life when I dont want to. I have come to a conclusion that so much in life is so simple, yet it is not easy at all. And thank goodness! How would life be if everything was simple and easy. this is life...the hard journey that we choose to pursue no matter the circumstances that evil tries to kill us with. Satan is always trying to crush me in whatever way he can; this is why I am reaching for the point of such faith that the devil has no assets to me. Smile is still, my motto. I love being a friend and boy, do I love having them.
When it comes to dreaming, I still do immensely. I dream, yet still, with no limitations. but..
When it comes to achieving, that's what I aim for more so then "super cool" dreams. Well, I dream, with every intention of fulfilling that dream.
I am in love with love, whether it's Jesus love, unfailing family love, completely reliable friend love..or the wonderment of someone I could love and that same person loving me. I trust trust trust trust Jesus for it. Like I said earlier...its simple...but most definitely not easy. Hopefully this is redundant...but, I truly believe this life is good. :)
oh man, this is my life.
-ashtynn
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