I believe in possibility.

It's probably too late to be blogging.

It's probably naive to dream as big as I do.
It's probably risky to be so enchanted by love.
It's probably dangerous that I believe I can do anything.
It's probably unrealistic that I'll see the whole world.
It's probably unlikely that I'll change the whole world.

..but...

It's possible.

And I believe in possibility a whole lot more than I do in probablity.

[and hey, you should too]

You are holy.
You are holy.
You hold my heart.
Holy is what you are.

You are faithful.
You are faithful.
You stay by side.
Faithfully, we ride.

Burning am I..
Burning...
Burning...
is what I am for You.

Forever.....Forever...Forever.

I will be like the sun, never put out and always rising again.
but only through You.

You are forever.

worthy of something worthwhile

The Creator of all, the ultimate Lover, the dream Fulfiller, the passionate Giver...

never fails.

That moves me..

to a place of emerging myself into complete surrender.

Day after day, life is inconsistent. People in my life are inconsistent. Dates and times and plans and emotions...are inconsistent.

But our God, He never seems to be that. 

His passion ignites me whenever I feel flameless. His hope stirs me whenever I feel immovable. His joy excites me whenever I feel dull. His constance makes me feel worthy of something worthwhile. 

If He is here always, it is for a monstrously big reason. I am here on earth in this time in this situation for a big reason. As are you.

I want to move and live in that reason. {the reason: God was, God is and God will be here for me because I am here for a big purpose}

Embracing that [unknown] purpose unlocks a part of God's heart that makes life's inconsistencies essential to this adventure called life.

More of You, less of me.

to see the world

sometimes I wonder if you ever think of me

when I thought our love was like a tree steadfast and never ending

will you ever know the pain that you caused

will you ever know what you lost

it swells up in my soul

the feeling of a pointless role

so the memories did not worth to you what they worthed to myself

oh that is saddening but I no longer need your help

i am living free with no weight upon

helpless broke but I passionately long

to see the world whole through love

is a dream like a free dove

i want to be free needed and heeded

i will take that simply from above


{To the friends I have lost because of strange happenings: I miss you, but until I can see you again..I am free...because of love}

words

a couple of favorite words:
eccentric & quirky

a least favorite word:
hubby

word describing this moment:
calm

word describing how I am feeling physically:
TIRED!

3 words describing my spiritual/emotional state:
eager, hopeful, love

lasts & firsts

Today is my last day of fifteen. Although I have felt older than that for awhile, it is exciting anyways! With a new number, a new season begins. Truly.

(I am getting my license within the week. EEK! :D)

We leave for my first mission trip August 4th...first time out of the continent. :)

I think that we need to remember to put the words "last" and "first" in that order.
With every closed door, with every concluding season..a FRESH, NEW time begins. No joke. This or that may end or be your last time to experience it ever. That's crazy and that's a big deal, but don't forget about the new and don't forget about the firsts. I could never express more..ENJOY THIS MOMENT..."This moment contains all moments." -CS Lewis
 I mean, what is tomorrow's moments whenever I haven't even lived today?

Adventure.

Here we go.
With arms wide open.
And willing Your way.
Fixing my gaze upon You.
Trusting. Surrendering. Desiring passionately and fiercely a holy fear for God that drives me to love FAR beyond myself and DEEPER than any waters.

I'm ready for firsts. I am ready for now.
Have. Your. Way.


Everlastingly,
Ashtyn Carrigan

Do you know that I thoroughly enjoy using & signs?
Do you know that I am going to become a boss at yoga?
Do you know that I am going to the beach in 6 days?
Do you know that I just watched Up!?
Do you know that I am not feeling very well?
Do you know that God is alive and awesome?

Now, you do.