thoughts and heart

I haven't posted in some time.

Why, life changes. It truly does. God is beautiful beautiful beautiful.
I, for one, do not just happily enjoy change. Because life has been so grand and I have seen wonders, I admit I can be afraid of them leaving me.
Whether good times "leave me", what do I fear? More extravagant time are to come. & are here.

Sometimes I don't love life but I always love being alive.

I have discovered and am discovering that friendships get harder as you get older. I have to try a lot harder than I used to, because of certain circumstances and happenstances of my life. I'm okay with that. It just shows they're important to me. It doesn't mean it is fun or easy, but it definitely develops perseverance all taking part in my character growth.

I am not naturally a patient person but because situations in life have called for patience, I have acquired patience like nothing else. Every day, I have to work hard to not be waiting patiently but living and loving patiently.

I encourage you today..tomorrow..and forever..To never let situations keep you on the ground. God is faithful. He is victor. Love always wins. Whether it's days, minutes, or months of specific or any hardship, keep trying because God has never and will never give up on you.

Don't be too hard on yourself. Let your gifts work. Don't compare yourself.

hope your fall is lovely!

-Ashtyn Carrigan (:

In all attempted secrecy, oddity has developed. There may be a feel of eloquence in these words, but we all have the knowledge of what has occurred. Not in ten thousand years did I see such a time as this, but peace has overwhelmed me from the inside out. Where would be without the perfection of Him? Where! Such quitters are we whom know the hope and love of the One and yet we have given up? No! Stand up; Choose to be who you are. Because you have found Him, you have found yourself. Don't let times change you; you must change times. In the midst of destruction and deprivation, seemingly pretendence seems fitting. Keep on with who you are when the hard times hit and allow faithfulness to be who you are for the time being. Now, don't doubt your own, no matter the lack of faith or hope. Every moment is a fresh and new opportunity to grasp and choose to see the Light that will come. The Light will come.

Surrender

Times come that shake us up, shake us so hard we don't know why this is happening.
The thing is, we must surrender our "right" to understand.
Surrender it all.
I have realized that I hadn't surrendered everything in my life.
Ask yourself if you truly are surrendering everything that needs to be surrendered.
I am at the point of my life in which I have never had to trust this immensely.

We all have situations in our life, whether they're big or small, they're bad. They feel pointless, disappointing and draining. Be of good cheer friends, for my God is bigger than these "bad" situations. Choose to trust so vastly that your hands are in the air and your eyes are on the King.

Surrender leads to trust. Trust leads to hope.

Abby's Ringtone That Someone Heard A lot Today

"Oh lets get rich and buy our parents homes in the south of France
Lets get rich and give everybody nice sweaters and teach them how to dance
Lets get rich and build a house on a mountain making everybody look like ants
From way up there, you and I, you and I" -Ingrid Michaelson

What A Skype Conversation Will Do :)

when a girl talks to her best friend

as i gmail chatted with abby the other day i was typing & i felt like sharing..

i have realized. that my music, my blogs and my journaling makes up who i am.
when i write...type..listen...it slowly forms who i am.
i get to show the definition of me.
the wonders of the happy things. i enjoy taking it all in and giving it out...
that the happiness and optimisticness that I am comes out when I let my lame ol try to be creative writing write.
it helps that i express it to my best friend.
the loving the simple things in life like sweet tea and sunflowers.
smiling at the words like hi and love
exhilarated by the adventures that occur and will slowly and rapidly venture out of life.
being like this helps me know who I am.

like nothing else.

Also I love Jesus with all my heart.

I know that I ramble & put words together, but why not?

May I Say...?

May I say I wish I could know and understand everything?
Why does it happen?
Why?
May I say that if I knew everything my life would be boring?
May I say that it is character building when I let myself trust in God instead of myself?
Life is no easy thing.
I have {recentlyish} come into situations that I never thought in a million years I would come upon.
Everything seems to undoubtedly crumble under my feet, whether its friendships or homework.
I dont know why, but I must retain the faith in my Jesus that He has His plans.
May I say that I must surrender to Him in ever way if I am going to live this life to the best of my ability...?

Romans 8:26-28 The Message
Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God's Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don't know how or what to pray, it doesn't matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That's why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.

Clinging to every promise He has given us. Knowing that there is a reason for this season.
I didn't truly comprehend life being downright rough until this whole "shabang" started happening...
but with never completely experiencing that...in this way..I haven't had to have this insane amount of faith.
My God is faithful even when I am faithless.
So imagine if I'm faithful...He still remains faithful.
It might just be me, but having faith makes it better.

It relays peace within.

Jesus have Your way.

In Him,
Ashtyn Grace Carrigan

It's Always Been You-Chris August

It's always been You from the day that I saw You
From a heart that was broken I was changed into something brand new
Like a butterfly learning how to use my wings to fly like the wind
Gotta make it home again
It's always been You seeing deeper than the surface with a smile You demolish all my walls You can always break through to the heart of the matter no matter what I try to do
When I hide from the sun You come and change my point of view

I'm sorry for the things I've done
When You ran to me I turned to run
But You were waiting when I came undone
And needed me someone to hold onto

It's always been You in the heat of the moment
When the pain was so real and the scars on my heart were still wounds
I gotta stop hiding from the one thing that’s left to do
I know what I gotta do

I'm sorry for the things I've done
When You ran to me I turned to run
But You were waiting when I came undone
And needed me someone to hold onto

I wake up I wake up to the morning light to the morning light
I wake up
I wake up cause You shine so bright

I'm sorry for the things I've done
When You ran to me I turned to run
Yeah, You were waiting
You were waiting
I'm sorry for the things I've done
When You ran to me I turned to run
But You were waiting when I came undone
And needed me someone to hold onto
It's always been You

Challenged

challenged.
i. am. challenged.
i am a hopeless defender of my own.
i am weak. i am unworthy.
i am broken. i cannot mend my self.
it's impossible.
complete self accomplishment can deceive me.
i am unable to do anything.
on my own.
I am nothing.
I am everything.
I am nothing when I have nothing, but myself.
I am capable of everything when I have God at all.
By...With...For.. Jesus Alone...
I am challenged, but I am not faithless.
I am filled with hope.
I am strong. I am more than worthy.
I am mended.
It is possible.
I learn truth.
I am able to do all things.
I am nothing.
I am everything.

My Blog

Ah, hello blog and blog viewers.
I am just so smart that I deleted my template and cannot get it back. In order to get a new one I really like, will take patience on my part and a lot of steps....I tried doing that today and that didn't work at all. In result, I have a boring blog template and design. I suppose the reason for a blog isn't for the pretty frills and cool designs, but for the words...the stories, the thought put into every post.

I will soon, change my template and colors to the best of my ability, but for now, what you see is what you get. Words, stories, thoughts....

type again soon,
ashtynn

:)