a beautiful guess. {unfinished lyrics.}

the silence you leave is a silent calling of the prestige within you and me...
the audacity you had, to stand up and leave me there. all alone. the capacity of life in me is draining slowly.
you had melancholy uncertainty though, i saw it in your eyes. but through the countless goodbyes you've said, im ready for the final number. our song is over. moving on. we will be fortified. we will be fortified.
the dry love we put above true love is coming out and im tired of the desires of my heart being surrounded by calamities. dramatic it may seem. but goodbye and God bless. my life is now a beautiful guess.
i set a new path to walk onto roads unseen. gonna find what i have missed between the lines i have made.
....slowly they will fade. and life will be lived according to no one, but dreams and goals and living and loving...

{unfinished lyrics}

til i type again,
ash

starving?

I was talking to Jesus yesterday and He told me, "y'all are starving."

I asked Him, "starving for what?...."

He said that we were starving for Him, starving for more and more of Him, yet not taking the food He has placed before us. He has given us so much. It's like a meal with several courses. A couple of them might not be the best. A vegetable you dislike or a weird, fancy food...then comes the juicy meat or the delectable dessert. He puts situations in our life so we will accept them and learn through them. If you eat a certain food for long enough you most likely will grow accustomed to it and perhaps, love it..

With Jesus though, it is also a faith thing; believing that through the confusing, hard circumstances that come, He is there and He will pull us through. The gifts and love and grace and mercy He has for us are unfathomable, but He wants to see our thankfulness, our faith to and in Him so He can show us much more of His unfailing kingdom.

Take the step of faith. Taste what He has served to us. A King. Serving. That's our God.

Be thankful.

Have a blessed day.

With love,

Ashtyn Carrigan

just here.

i am the sun shining in the sky.

so simple to everyone, they pass me by.

complaining sometimes, blaming alot.

a beautiful day, and yes it's hot.

i give them light on a gloomy day.

just at least, so they can see their way.

i make it clear. so they dont have to fear.

but fear, they do.

the beauty of pain.

the beauty of sacrifice.

the beauty of giving.

i try to give you what you ask.

but faith it takes. to accomplish a task.

preaching is so unawakening, to those who dont want light.

so humility is the key to helping them fight.

so they can fight their battle. win their battle.

love their battle.

live their battle.

live their life.

hello blogging world.

hey there. i have a blog. :)

i love to write. always have. i always write in my journal, but i suppose i can share some of my poetry, songs,

life and such with you.

well, it is almost late, but i just wanted to let you know i am blogging! haha. well goodnight world. :)